>As my thirtieth birthday quickly approaches, I have been thinking a lot. A lot about life and what it is that is important to me and what makes me happy. I dont mean to sound selfish or self-centered, but a lot of my thoughts have been about me and what I really like and want…….For so long, I have always did what I thought others expected. For instance, when I was a junior in high school( bless God, that seems so long ago! lol) I wanted to major in journalism. Creative writing, journaling, and reading were always fun to me. I could read novels and write short stories for hours with such enthusiasm and the ability to picture everything I was reading or writing in my head in movie like form. So….journalism felt good to me! But once I told a few people my plans I was quickly shot down and told the journalism was not “practical” and that I wouldnt be able to support myself with a degree in it.
So, instead of doing what I wanted, I did what I was told………found something practical (which was criminal justice). Although I worked in the crimal justice field for five years, I was never fulfilled. It always felt like work. When I heard people say that they loved what they did for a living and that work was a joy, I could not relate and honestly the thought of enjoying my job was hilarious!
So when our daughter was almost a year old I left my job to be a stay-at-home wife/mother. And I am so grateful that I am able to be at home with my children to teach them and love on them, but I dont want my journey to stop there. I have really been thinking about what I can do to help me be a better wife and mother and also what makes me happy.
Here’s what I came up with: it is time for me to step out on what is “normal” for me. Example-this blog!!! I have always wanted to write a book and this blog is a step in that direction. Do me!!! I have a soft spot in my heart for young women dealing with pregnacy issues, so volunteering once a week at a local pregnancy agency will be me giving back. Quality time!!! Spend more time outside of the house with my kids; even if it is just playing in the yard. Self-examination!!! Meditating on the word of God to see if my life is lining up with God’s standards and journaling about my days. Exercise!!! My hubby got me the treadmill Ive been wanting, now it’s time to loose the baby weight (can I even still claim baby weight if the twins are a year old now? lol) Stick to my schedule!!! making my daily schedule and sticking to it while still being open to any changes that the Holy Spirit may have on deck!
I am soooooooooooo looking forward to a great year! While I am learning to do more for myself, I am so glad that in the process I can be an example of Godliness and grace for my babies. Do you got any dreams that you pushed to the back of your mental closet??? I dare you to pull them out, examine them, and clean them off to see what happens……..You might just find the very thing that you’ve been searching for all along…….
Miracles and Blessings;)